Tuesday, June 28, 2011

its raining cats

Early this morning, around 3 am, I was rudely awakened by my crazy dog barking in our living room. He often sits on a table near the front window and carefully maneuvers the curtains so that he can stare outside at whatever.

I turned restlessly and waited for someone else in my family to deal with him. Sure enough I heard my father go downstairs and immediately went back to bed. Four minutes later (or 7 months in dream land) I heard my dog barking again. I assumed I had just dreamt that my dad gone downstairs so I reluctantly opened my door to tell my dog to shush. Oddly, the hallway light was on, but I continued to the living room. When I got there my dad was, indeed in the room, with my barking dog, looking out the window.

"Ralphy shush, Dad the neighbors will complain," and ushered Ralphy out.

This evening I asked my dad why he stood in the room with barking Ralphy instead of shutting him up.

"I wanted to see what he was looking at"


"It was a cat!"

My dad was incredibly amused by the fact that this cat traipsed around our front lawn, completely unmoved by Ralphy's barking. I was amused that my dad stood there staring at the cat with my dog.

Something I Made This Week: A Novice Painting

So play is over and I am completely bummed out. I miss the people I worked with, the preparation, the snacks but above all, the exhilaration of being on stage. What can I say? I'm a middle child: I love attention.

WELL ANYWAYS, to keep myself busy I've decided to start a lil' chapter called Something I Made This Week.

This week I used a photograph for reference in a mini trial painting to whip me back into shape. The picture was taken on my disposable camera last summer while I was in the car merging onto the highway. The sky was so rich with color and the light behind the trees made them appear as a beautiful black silhouettes. The colors have obviously been dulled as a result of using a disposable, but I think it works, and gives the picture a nostalgic feeling.

I've always found painting to be extremely hard and have incredible difficulty with getting the color I want, mostly because I'm too lazy to practice and make a color wheel etc. But anyways, here is my impression of the photograph. I am not really happy with it and enjoy the photo way better than the painting but I found it to be a great learning experience. I'm hoping as I continue Something I Made This Week interlude, things will improve.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Clearly trying to Contact me

The other day on TV I saw an ad for ClearlyContacts. It said you could upload a picture of yourself or take one on your webcam and preview what you look like with all kindsa crazy frames. So of course I did. It was terrible and didn't really work and I thought nothing of it. NOW 3 days later, as I surf the internet, there are ClearlyContacts ads following me EVERYWHERE and I am really scared. Help please.

Friday, June 3, 2011

168 eyes

So recently I was given some pretty good advice. I started to fret over the fact that everyone I knew had super duper real people jobs and I'm still being a bit of a willow wisp. I have two passions and I'm not sure how to unite them, especially because they are both on separate ends of the spectrum. Anyways, that kind of stuff can get you down since you constantly feel sort of helpless and confused.

Back to the advice: Acknowledge the great things you've done.

I have accomplished a lot of things I am proud of, and for some reason I don't give myself credit. The other day when I was on stage, I broke character for a second and became completely aware of the audience and what was happening...It was during one of the characters longer-ish monologues haha, and its never happened before.

When the play is about to start, yeah, its nerve-wracking, but more in an exciting way because it feels like you are about to feed the audience, or fuel them...More so in this play because it's a comedy. But once you're preparing to step on to the stage and you're in character, you sort of zone out the audience and stay in the moment of whats happening in the scene. HA isn't that strange. Zone out 168 people staring at you.

So when I broke, I was petrified, I realized, all these people were watching us...watching ME. I quickly slipped back into my character and tried to forget about it and carry on. I was a bit traumatized haha but was fine going into the second act. When I got home, I recognized the courage it took to go up on stage and act in front of all those people, and I felt happy.

What I've learnt: Don't measure your credentials by what's on your resume and acknowledge what you've done. Yes this can be hard when you are desperately seeking The Perfect Job, but it'll definately cut out a whole lota feeling shit about yourself time.