Clearly trying to Contact me

The other day on TV I saw an ad for ClearlyContacts. It said you could upload a picture of yourself or take one on your webcam and preview what you look like with all kindsa crazy frames. So of course I did. It was terrible and didn't really work and I thought nothing of it. NOW 3 days later, as I surf the internet, there are ClearlyContacts ads following me EVERYWHERE and I am really scared. Help please.

168 eyes

So recently I was given some pretty good advice. I started to fret over the fact that everyone I knew had super duper real people jobs and I'm still being a bit of a willow wisp. I have two passions and I'm not sure how to unite them, especially because they are both on separate ends of the spectrum. Anyways, that kind of stuff can get you down since you constantly feel sort of helpless and confused.

Back to the advice: Acknowledge the great things you've done.

I have accomplished a lot of things I am proud of, and for some reason I don't give myself credit. The other day when I was on stage, I broke character for a second and became completely aware of the audience and what was happening...It was during one of the characters longer-ish monologues haha, and its never happened before.

When the play is about to start, yeah, its nerve-wracking, but more in an exciting way because it feels like you are about to feed the audience, or fuel them...More so in this play because it's a comedy. But once you're preparing to step on to the stage and you're in character, you sort of zone out the audience and stay in the moment of whats happening in the scene. HA isn't that strange. Zone out 168 people staring at you.

So when I broke, I was petrified, I realized, all these people were watching us...watching ME. I quickly slipped back into my character and tried to forget about it and carry on. I was a bit traumatized haha but was fine going into the second act. When I got home, I recognized the courage it took to go up on stage and act in front of all those people, and I felt happy.

What I've learnt: Don't measure your credentials by what's on your resume and acknowledge what you've done. Yes this can be hard when you are desperately seeking The Perfect Job, but it'll definately cut out a whole lota feeling shit about yourself time.

Oh Susie.

Theres this woman I know, who shalt not be named. Actually, lets call her Susie just to make things easier.

One day, Susie was on the computer. Susie often uses the computer to watch things on YouTube, usually How-To videos, like How To make a certain Indian dish (hint hint) or How To train your dog. If Susie isn't on YouTube, she is checking her hotmail account as she frequently recieves chain mail from her friends. On this particular day, Susie called out to me,

"Rakhee, what's your cell phone PIN? Its supposed to be 4 digits."

I started to think about it, because I couldn't remember, but then questioned why she was asking me for this information in the first place. I know she doesn't know how to check accounts online. She replied,

"Because, it says I won an iPad 2 and it's asking me for a cell phone number and PIN."

At this point, I run into her room to check the screen. Just as I had presumed, there was a pop-up ad, proclaiming that she had won an iPad 2 because she was the 2093828 person to visit the website.

"Susie, this is a pop up ad...have you already entered my phone number on this?"

"..Yes.."

4 minutes later I recieved my first spam text msg.

Thanks Susie.

Sisters

Rak (23): Get twitter asap or else you'll be behind your generation. Make sure Beiber is in your prof pic too or else, again, you'll be ridiculed.
Rup (17): Yeah I know.

dream diaries

I dreamt I was in Roots at my local mall and had to put a winter hat on hold at a different store because the lady in front of me had just bought the last one. When the stylist called the store on Bloor, she said they were apparently too busy to do it because they were prepping for the Royal Wedding. So I called back myself an hour later pretending to be Kate Middleton to speed up the process.

WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN?

people watching at the library

Yesterday, I was at the library doing some work and sat at a table next to a girl with her laptop open:
As I'm twiddling my thumbs, brainstorming and what not, I get distracted. She has ear buds in and I'm almost certain she is NOT listening to music... sounded more like a low rumble... sort of like some low rumbler guy is talking. So I think, meh maybe shes listening to language recordings or an audio book (man I miss those) and carry on with my people watching. Thing is, I can't help randomly glance in her direction because she keeps giggling to herself and tap tap typing away. I assumed shes on msn or whatever until I see her do this to her computer:
Not an odd gesture to see in the library.. but to shush one's computer? Thats a bit weird noh? AND THEN I hear the pst pst pst through her headphones of a guys voice again, and a giggle from her. She makes a face. And another. Giggle. Face. Oh Em Gee, is she VIDEO CHATTING with someone? One way video chat? You see me, you audibly talk to me, I type back? At the library? In a public SPACE? Anyways I find this all vaguely funny/strange and flash back to this time in uni when I was in a coffee shop attached to the library. I recall sitting down at a table and hearing a guy say, "Hi mom!" I looked up to find a guy gleefully chatting to his computer with his ear buds in. Thats all for now. Bye Mum.

I've got two sets of headphones and

My friend sent me this and it made me miss music so goddamn much. Headphones strapped on your head, walking home at night with clear skies and beautiful stars kinda music. (Shutup, I just walked my dog.)



I've sort of been going through this phase where I stopped listening to my ipod in public spaces because I felt it disconnected me too much from my surroundings. Sounds stupid and pretentious I know, but I hated that I kept missing these interactions with the people around me. And I know this is creepy --and that you aren't supposed to start a sentence with the word 'and'-- but I also find it really interesting to watch people. To listen to them too.

This doesn't go for everything because I really don't enjoy hearing girlfriends complain about how they 'don't care if their boyfriend calls them back, BUT don't SAY you're going to call then don't' OR young male teens going through a thug-esque identity crises who brag about smoking weed and effing people up.

However people with their phones n music are SO in there own worlds and I just wish they weren't. Perhaps its the same as looking out a window of the bus on the ride home and zoning out but I still think that with ipods and phones you are making a conscientious choice and a decision to cut yourself out of your environment.

I'm not saying everyone should stop listening to their music. In fact I've really begun to miss mine. But lets try and reduce situations where you can't casually say, "g'morning," to someone, without them looking at you blankly as they take an ear bud out, while you explain you were just saying good morning.